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white people I was really tired of the approach that a lot of white people were willing to take: that we are all equal. and then there are the white people who know and always acknowledge the difference, but do they know why? and then there are the whites who actually do know the reasons, and have documented it and studied them. That is one reason why I love adolf hitler and i love the germans.  and the nazis. Yes it is great,  there is mendel with the peas. but I might have overlooked some things, had it not been for hitler.

Chapter 37 It is crazy that the economic differences are this big indeed.  Nimisha received a BMW from her uncle.  I get an occassional $50 from my paternal aunt, and an occassional $100 dollars from my maternal grandmother.  And then others who keep driving the delusional ideas of psychiatry on me and trying to force me to take medications.  who insane is that.  torturous even.  I listen to comments of my sister indicating that she is falling into the trap of the health care systems and the mental health systems and psychiatry, willing to make her merely into a psychiatric patient.  you really have to deny mental health problems and just keep going without them, because they will not make it better.  This is what I have done.  I have moved on completely without them, and just gained all the information that I could from them, when I was forced to be apart of it.  It is a power issue for them, I have realized, otherwise I would be sitting their borrowed offices and discussing inter

one way to think of race is that race is white.  and it is the white race, since they invented these words through careful observation.  and then it is the white race with different humans at different points of evolution, which in part is demostrated through skin color, and expression of different types of melanin.  where the whitest are the most evolved and the lesser whites are lesser evolved, all the way down to black.  I think that is actually probably more accurate for humans.  and thus part of the reason for the confusion on race.  And I am quite sure, although, not everyone is willing to admit it, that all humans want to be white. 

it is becoming apparent to me that these white caucasian people do want a lot, even though many of them do not realize it.  For me, I will just be holding on for the ride and resting a long the entire way.  As I want to eat.  I want to have sex.  I want to procreate with one.  That is all that I want.  just one for a zygote, an embryo, a fetus, a infant, a terrible two, a toddler, a child, a pre teen, an adolescent, a teenager, a young adult, an adult, and a nother one of one, and eventually, another death.  and back to another form of energy.  a form of heat dissipating into the universe to be in love as warm molecules in a cold place.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k4V3Mo61fJM

I am just a white boy with a tan. As I have always been. After all of this all there is to do is to keep speaking the truth perfectly and completely, as usual.

Chapter 37 A negroid trapped in a black world on earth I am a negroid trapped in a black world on earth. I froteured eliza cowan. a white caucasian woman in a white world on earth. maybe had i been white she might not have called the police.  or, maybe she still would have. maybe if I was more aesthetically pleasing to her, then she would have accepted my invitation for sex and friendship.  she is still a friend of mine,  although she may not want me, as i want her.   I am a nigger. perceived to be black.  one drop rule. having not left the congo in time to keep up with the rest. maybe my ancestors were having too much fun, basking in the sun, of the congo. maybe my ancestors were not  intelligent enough to bear the cold climate prior to the erection of these buildings. the penalty is: to forever be a negroid. even my child will be a negroid. a nigger still. even a mongoloid can not change that. but he or she will be mine. and